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i wonder if... i fail...
will i be the same?
in my current state theres so much changes already...

i know these are bad thoughts...
but i already starting to give up on life...
because the light ahead is dim...
i wont end my life... i dont think i will have the guts to do so...
but i wont have the strength to continue...

maybe in the future i will forget about this feeling... this i do not know...
i am not sure will i be able to do it...
because this time, this feeling is really at it's strongest...
because i love you...

after thinking...

maybe i finally understand why i am like this...
why am i so insecure...
after so long...
i never really got any positive response from you...
none that i can be confident of...

i do not want to be like this...
but i am unable to control myself...
somebody please help me...

sensitive

i guess i really am sensitive lately... so you all should watch what you guys say especially about her... but you all wont know how i really feel... so its useless... i only can keep to myself my stupid feelings... hope i wont explode one day...

continue~

the bees in my heart can only be attracted by you...
im sensitive because im insecure
all i want is you
im scared of losing you
and until i hear your answer, i will not give up!

im sorry to those i affected because of my stupid emotions...
i meant no harm... just wanna have someone to talk to... to listen to me...

lol just remember i got this...

after so long... nearly two years im back ><

just wanna say that only You can make me this way...

maybe i'll write more later...